+layout

.version:	10
.featuring:	Ling of Silver Ash
.colors:	pink & black
.credits:	Pitas, Prototype V, & Paint Shop Pro.
.copyright:	layout © me. you steal, you die.

+about me

.name:	Meg
.age:	15
.birthday:	09/04/86
.sign:	Virgo/Tiger
.height:	4'11"
.hair:	brown w/pink & orange streaks
.eyes:	hazel
.colors:	pink, orange, green, blue
.loves:	James
.3 songs:	Pink Killer - Dir en Grey, Endless Life - Masami Okui, Bye Bye - Nanase Aikawa

+current stuff

.date:	Thursday, 04/18/02
.time:	9:16 PM
.music:	Cylinder - Orivia
.food/drink:	nothing
.pain:	nothing right now
.worry:	nothing
.wish:	to see James
.thought:	where is James right now?
.mood:

+tests

.DeG:	Shinya
.Mana:	Innocent Mana
.Ayu:	Endless Sorrow
.L'arc:	Kasou
.J-Rock:	Dir en Grey
.Lareine:	Kamijo
.Gackt:	Merveilles Gackt

+MP3 player song list

01. Deity - Dir en Grey

02. Bye Bye - Nanase Aikawa

03. Until Strawberry Sherbert - Megumi Hayashibara

04. Zan (D.P.Y mix) - Dir en Grey

05. Lovin' You - Nanase Aikawa

06. Vanilla - Gackt

07. Over the End - Masami Okui

08. Kiss in the Dark - Masami Okui

09. Native Devil - Aliene Ma'riage

10. Mizerable - Gackt

11. Mirror - Gackt

12. Oasis - Gackt

13. First Love (dance mix) - Hikaru Utada

14. Cutie - Masami Okui

15. Endless Life - Masami Okui

16. Cosmic Love - Nanase Aikawa

17. Pink Killer - Dir en Grey

+archives

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I think I've gotten bored of this thing. -.- Lol. I've had online journals and stuff on and off a lot lately, and I can never keep them more than a few months. x_X Oh well, maybe I'll start over.

Damn, this layout doesn't look right. I'll be changing it in a minute, as soon as I can make another one. x_X So sorry.

I'm thinking about putting a new layout up...yes...already. Lol. Well, I'm going to do that now. Bye!

Well, I just got done drying my hair. The orange, as I would've guessed, looks like red, and the pink looks slightly orange-ish. But other than that, my hair looks cool! ^_^ Hehe.

I still haven't talked to James yet. I miss him. I really need to talk to him. But unfortunately I probably won't see him till it's almost time for me to go to sleep. -.- I dunno why, but it's almost always like that with him. He gets online in the afternoon, then disappears and doesn't come back till late. Oh well. I don't mind that much, really, but I do when I need to talk to him. And I really miss him now. ;_;

I got my hair dyed. But the stuff's still in....and I got foil and a plastic bag over it so it doesn't come out and I gotta wash the extra dye out of my hair later. ^_^ But it's still dyed! Yay! Lol. I hope it looks okay. It looked kinda funny with just the bleach in it, because I'm not used to having light streaks in my hair. But it'll look cool when I wash it out later. But I'm gonna leave it in for a long time, so it'll show up better. Hehe. I hope it doesn't damage my hair too much...

Oh yeah, James and I got into kind of an argument earlier today. x_X But then I had to go so we never worked it out...I think he's upset because I don't care what people think and he thinks I don't care what he thinks. I do care what he thinks, though. In fact, I was having doubts about it when my mom was driving there. But I've always wanted my hair to be some sort of bright color...so I couldn't just give up on that because he wouldn't like it...I just hope he loves me the same even if he doesn't like my hair...because I really love him...and I don't wanna lose him over something like that...

I have forty more minutes to enjoy my natural hair color. Lol. I took some more before pictures, and I'm not sure which one I like the most. I'll figure it out when I get my after pics later. Lol. I can't wait!! When it's done, I'm gonna try out a few hairstyles that I can do really quickly for tomorrow. ^_^ It's gonna be so cute! Anyway...I don't feel like updating this thing too much right now, so I'm gonna go get something to eat or something. Bye!

Well guess what. I finally fixed the printer, and I've been printing out pictures of J- and C-Rockers tonight. Lol. It's fun. I printed about six...and that's gonna be all for tonight. In order from which I printed first, they were: Shinya of Dir en Grey, Toshiya of Dir en Grey, the whole band of Sarii, Reika of Madeth Gray'll, Lucy of Silver Ash, and Hong of Silver Ash. ^^ I'm gonna take them to school tomorrow and then I'm gonna put them on my walls. They'll liven my room up a little. Hehe.

Anyways, I'm gonna go now, because it's almost my bedtime. Night night!

I have 20 hours and 27 minutes till I get my hair dyed tomorrow. Hehe.

I was just bitchy to someone. Lol. She was being rude to me and my friends and I showed them all a picture of Mana *innocent giggle* and she asked if I was gay. Soo...I said no and I said that it seemed kind of homophobic to think that guys who look like women are gay automatically. Well, okay, I was kind of mean there, because she didn't say that she thought he was gay or anything, but that's because I was pissed cuz of the way she was acting before. I mean, she called someone a loser (I dunno if it was me or my other friends) and she asked my friend if she were a blonde and she interrupted my speech about how water is important and stuff. Oh well, I'm glad I pissed her off. I dunno why, but it was amusing. And well, I know I used the word homophobic wrong, but that's because I couldn't think of the right word I wanted to use. Ah well.

Oh yeah, I've taken the before picture, but I'm going to retake it later, because it's bad. Lol. Oh well. Hehe.

Well, I think I'm gonna get another glass of water and listen to some more music. Bye!

I just started working on my new layout. It's gonna be of the vocalist of a new band I heard of. I haven't heard any songs by them yet, but they look like they'd sound pretty cool. The band's called Silver Ash, and they're Chinese. Hehe...my first Chinese rock band. I'm downloading Lunar Eclipse right now, and hopefully they'll sound good enough for me to want more songs. Hehe. ^_^ Their vocalist, Ling, kinda reminds me of Kaoru of Dir en Grey. Anyway, I'm gonna go back to working on my layout, bye bye! ^_^

x_X Last night and today have been so damn hot! I mean geez! It's nice and all, but I don't like it when I'm trying to sleep. I got really hot last night. It sucked.

Anyways, I can't wait till Wednesday! ^___^ In case you haven't read, I'm getting my hair streaked pink and orange on Wednesday. Hehe. I'm gonna have to find my camera software and take a "Before" picture so when I get it dyed I can take another to be an "After" picture and I can show how it looked before and after I get it dyed.

I'm sooo sore today. My arms and legs are all sore and stuff. It feels like I pulled all of my muscles or something, but I don't really know how...well...I know I probably strained my arms too much by moving furniture yesterday, but I dunno what happened with my legs. Maybe I...slept on them funny? o.O I dunno...but they hurt...and I'm gonna have to exercise in gym tomorrow too...we didn't have to today, because our teacher wasn't here today. Hehe. But we gotta tomorrow x_X which sucks. Oh well.

Today's my cousin's birthday. Blah. It's the one I reeeeaaallly don't like, too. Yuck. I'm really gonna hate this. x_X Oh well. I'll get through it. Maybe I can sneak back downstairs or into my room or something when nobody's looking....I doubt anyone would notice. At least, I hope nobody would notice. Hehe.

Well...I'm thinking about making a new layout or something, so I'll update later. Bye!

x_X I'm dying of boredom here. Help meeee!!!

So, you're probably now wondering What the hell is wrong with you?, so I'll tell you. I'm having probably the most boring Sunday ever in my life! Seriously! It's probably the most productive Sunday I've ever had, but it's also boring!

I tried playing Suikoden 2, but it got boring after a while. Then I started listening to my music in my room and dancing, but then I cut my foot. And then my brother couldn't find me a bandaid (I wouldn't get one myself because I was afraid I'd track blood on the carpet) and then when he finally found one I was dragging myself around on the floor holding toilet paper to my foot trying to find one too. And then the damn thing wouldn't even stay on. But my foot stopped bleeding, so I guess that's okay...

And so now I'm here...because I'm still bored to death. I talked to Lajy a little bit before I got here, she said that maybe Emma might be online, but she's not. Oh well. I'm bored once more.

I'm gonna talk to Den for now, because he's sad and I wanna cheer him up. I hate it when people are sad. ^^;; And then, I might get on the PS2 again and try to play FFX. I'm gonna try to get at least some of the ultimate weapons and crests and sigils for the characters, but I KNOW I'm not gonna be able to get Tidus' one, because geez you gotta get a freaking 0.00 seconds on a chocobo race! That's way too hard..my best is about 7 or 8. something seconds. Lol. So, I'm gonna end this entry for now...bye!

I finished cleaning and redecorating my room, FINALLY. Now I can actually relax. Actually, I've been relaxing since about 3:30 PM. I've just been so lazy that I didn't bother to update till now. Lol.

I wanna play Suikoden 2. In fact, I think I will. So I'll be going now, bye! ^_^

I just noticed that James is offline. It kinda looks like it's been like that for a while, too. So I think I'm gonna go get ready for bed, and then if I have a little more time before I have to go to sleep, I'm gonna clean my room a little more...

So, I probably won't be here till much later today, considering the fact that I'll probably wake up around 1 PM or so and then I'll be cleaning till my room's sparkly clean. Hehe. Oyasumi nasai, minna! ^^

I just noticed something.

A lot of my entries lately have the title "wheeee" or something similar.

Odd, ne?

Like the new layout? Sorry that the other one only stayed up for a day. I just felt like I needed to make it different for some reason. Don't get me wrong or anything, I really liked the Reika layout, but for some reason I can't stay with dark layouts as long as light ones usually.

James is being too quiet. I think I'm gonna go bug him. Lol. Bye!

I have four more days till I get my hair dyed. Thank God. I can't wait.

Oh yeah, I got home from my aunt's house a little while ago, and I did a bit of room-cleaning. The only problem is that there's too many people around so it'll be harder to take stuff to the storage room. I might be done for tonight. I'm not sure, though. My mom said I should use a Swiffer thingy to get the dust out after I clean everything up. Because it's easier to use and lighter than a vacuum cleaner.

When I was at my aunt's house, I didn't get to talk to Lajy much, but when I did talk to her, I asked her if I could talk to one of the spirits in my aunt's house, because one time Lajy said that there were a few spirits in her house. So I talked to one of the spirits there, her name was Melanie. She seemed nice. She remembered me when I was really young and I used to visit my aunt and stuff. ^^;; She even remembered how I broke my leg the summer before I went to first grade. Hehe. But then my mom told me to put my notebook up because she didn't want my grandfather seeing me talking to spirits because he might bug her about not making me go to church. -.- Meanie. Oh well. I really don't want to go to church anyway so I guess it's ok.

Anyway, I think I'm (already!) starting to get bored of this layout, so I'm thinking about making a new one..probably very different from my usual ones. Lol. Bye!

I've been cleaning my room today. Yay. Lol. My hands hurt though, because I've been putting stuff in boxes and carrying them down to the storage room because I don't want that stuff in my room. Particularly the stuff in my closet...

Anyway, I can actually walk into my closet again and close the door behind me and still have some room to move around and breathe in. I think I'm gonna put my shoes in there like either on the top shelf or on the left side of the floor in there, and on the right I'm gonna ask my mom if I can put this old chair that's in the front hall in there to put my bookbag on. And then I'm gonna try to move some stuff around in my room. First of all, I wanna put my bed where my dresser is now and I wanna put my dresser where my bed is now. Lol. Except I wanna put my bed up against the corner because then I could keep my nightstand on the wall that it's on, except facing a different direction. I'm also thinking about putting my bookshelf on the same wall as my dresser, too, and I'm gonna put like my incense and stuff in the bookshelf, because I took most of the books out of it because I never read them anymore and I figured they were just taking up space.

Ah..and my desk! I'm thinking about putting my desk where my tall chest of drawers is now and putting the chest of drawers where the desk is now, so at least it can be closer to the dresser. ^^

Okay, I know you're probably confused now, because hardly ANYONE has been in my room, mostly because it's so messy! x_X But that doesn't matter, I know what I'm talking about, so I don't care if nobody understands me! Lol.

Anyway, I'm gonna finish cleaning later tonight, because I gotta go to my aunt's house later today and I'm kinda dressed up right now. I just hope I can move all of that stuff...x_X And I hope I can keep it that clean this time. ^^;;; I'm horrible at letting my room get so messy that it takes forever to clean up! Lol.

Anyway, I'm done rambling about my room right now, so I'm gonna close this entry, but I have some other stuff to talk about, so I'll talk about that later! Bye.

We didn't get to see The Panic Room. Because people in the theater are bitchy and they said that our parents had to watch it with us because it was rated R. -.-

So, we ended up seeing Clockstoppers. It was okay, but kinda boring. And the end didn't really fit in. -.- It didn't make sense. Oh well. It was a PG movie. So it couldn't be too good anyway. Lol. Oh well. I don't really care. I got to hang out with my friends, so that's cool.

Right about now I am kinda tired and bored. I think I'll talk to Lajy a little bit, and then I might play Final Fantasy X. Bye bye!

I'm going to the movie in a little bit. It's starting at 7, so I gotta go around 20 or 15 minutes before.

God I talk a lot. Emma called a long time ago and we were talking for a long time. Lol. We talked about a lot of stuff, including the movie. We're gonna see The Panic Room. I hope it's good..

Oh yeah, I finished the layout, so it's probably gonna be up in a few minutes. ^^;; So I'm gonna put it up now, bye!

I just got home a little while ago and made myself some hot chocolate. Mmmm..

My friend Emma invited me to go to the movies tonight, fun fun fun. I think I might go, because James probably won't be here till after midnight, so it's not like I'm gonna miss seeing him or anything.

Oh yeah, guess who decided to talk to me today? Some blonde guy who hasn't talked to me in about a month. Lol. He was in my art class last semester, and we were pretty cool, I think, but he's been avoiding me lately I think. Oh well, doesn't really bother me.

I got caught up with all of my Latin work today. Amazing, ne? ^_^ I finished everything on the assignment sheet today.

Oh yeah, my mom said I might get to drive this weekend. I hope I do better than I did when I first drove! Lol.

I think I'm going to work on my new layout some more now, bye!

Pitas wouldn't let me add any entries yesterday. >< I think the server was having problems or something. Oh well. ^^

In other words, I'm putting songs on my MP3 player before I go to school. I'm starting to get more into Nanase Aikawa and Masami Okui again.

Nanase Aikawa used to be my favorite female J-Rocker, I guess she still is though, because she's the only J-Rocker I've heard that's female. Hehe.

Masami Okui used to be my favorite J-Pop/anime music singer until I heard Ayumi Hamasaki and got so into her little pop stuff. ^^;;

I'll have to show you a list of my MP3 player song list after I get home. I'm also working on a new layout, a layout of Reika of Madeth Gray'll. Madeth Gray'll has a really pretty gothic rock sound, but I get sick of it after a while. But Reika has beautiful hair...you'll see what I mean when I put that layout up here. ^^

Wow! My songs are already almost copied onto my MP3 player! That's fast ^^ I'm glad though. Anyway, I think I'm gonna go for now, I'll be back after school! Bye!

Guess what. I actually beat a game of blitzball in Final Fantasy X. Which is amazing for me. o.O

In other FFX news, I beat Seymour, and he's finally been sent. YAY! Lol. I'm not gonna play anymore tonight, though, because I was fussing at James for not being on earlier and I can't really complain if I'm not here either, so I'm gonna wait here for him if I don't have to do anything else.

Oh yeah, FFIX went back to Blockbuster today. Sucks, ne? I was hoping I could catch up to my brother...oh well, I don't really care. I'll beat FFX before him, FFIX doesn't really matter right now.

I actually drew something worth drawing today! It's amazing. I've hardly ever drawn any real pictures lately, just doodles and stuff mostly. But anyway, I drew this really cute little girl in like a joker/clown outfit or something. I designed it myself ^^ and she's really cute. I'll have to scan her sometime soon. She was inspired to me first by some monsters in Suikoden 1 & 2 called Nightmares, which are like joker card thingies, and then by Final Fantasy IX, with their little cute style of drawing and stuff. I might put her into a future layout for this thing.

Anyway, I'm thinking about scanning and coloring her, so I'm gonna go for now so I can do that, bye! ^^

Today I found out something bad that happened to Alex over break. I can't say what it is, because I don't want to get anyone else in danger who happens to read this. But it's kinda scaring me...I hope we can fix it soon, before anything serious happens. ^^;;; I'm really worried, but I'm gonna try not to worry too much. Nothing too serious should happen to me, because I wasn't really involved in the initial incident. But I'm worried about Alex and Fiona, because they're the ones who were involved in it, and I'm afraid something really bad might happen to them if we don't do something about it soon...

Sorry for no updates at all today, I've been playing Final Fantasy X and IX all day.

I'm almost done with FFX. I think I'm about to fight Seymour for the last time (amazing!), but I'm trying to fight a lot before I get there, so my characters will have their best stats when I do fight him.

Storywise, I haven't gotten anywhere since last night, and last night I fought Sin a lot and I think I don't have to fight him anymore. I've been fighting the monsters around where I think I'm supposed to be going soon, but I haven't actually gone anywhere too far from the airship. Just far enough to gain enough sphere levels to raise my characters' stats.

Oh yeah, last night, I got the aeon Anima. If you've played at least a little bit of FFX (till the part in Luca), you should know that Anima was Seymour's aeon. Well, I sure showed Seymour, I've got his aeon now so he'll be no match for me when I fight him the last time!! Hahahaha!!

I FINALLY got Yuna's Holy and Lulu's Flare spells today. I'm so happy! Holy does about 9999 points of damage and costs 85 MP, and Flare does about 6500 something points and..I forgot how much MP it cost. I also got Double-Cast for Lulu. And I hope to get Full-Life for Yuna soon. Soon...not yet, but soon...I don't have any more Level 4 Key Spheres. I also plan on getting the Magus Sister aeons. But, they seem like they're pretty tough to get, so I think I might save them for my next game of FFX. They could really help in the last fight with Sin if I get them in my next game...

Like I mentioned before, I also played FFIX a little bit. I got to Lindblum. I also did the little Festival of the Hunt mini game thing...but I lost, so I'm gonna try again next time I play.

Hmmm, where's James? It's only about 9:30 where he is now..He usually isn't on much during the day on the weekends. I wonder if I'll see him soon..or if I'll have to wait till tomorrow...oh well. Lol. I almost put "wall" instead of "well" there. Well, like I was saying, oh well ^^;;; I'll see him later.

I think I've rambled enough now, so I'm going to stop. Bye!

James and I are going through another hard time right now. He was talking about guns and stuff, and I was just not saying anything much, because I didn't want to piss him off or anything.

To tell the truth, I've never really liked guns that much. They really...scare me...Well, not to the point that I'm afraid to be around them, but you know...I could never fire one...

And then I thought that it wouldn't be right to hide my feelings from him, because in a way it's deceiving him and not telling him what I feel.

So I told him that guns really scare me. And he got upset. And said that we shouldn't be together if I'm afraid of guns. Because he has all these guns and stuff...and there's nothing that can tear me apart more than hearing him say that we shouldn't be together....that just...hurts...

Yeah...And anyways...we haven't solved it yet....mostly because he's not talking anymore...oh well...I'll get through this...I hope...

You know what's really pissing me off right about now?

Okay, it's about one of my cousins, and no, it's not about that fact that I hate his guts and he hates mine, but I really don't get this. Sometimes my aunt comes over to my house for dinner, and he has the choice to stay home or come here. Well, what really pisses me off is that he'll come here and either isolate himself with the video games or play with my brother, pretending to be his friend when he really treats him like shit most of the time. And then at dinner he'll act like he's pissed off or something. Like his mother forced him to come here. Geez. It was his fucking choice and he shouldn't act so fucking pissed off!

If he's gonna do that, he shouldn't come over to our house for dinner. It pisses me off.

Well, I'm getting a bit bored right now. I'm gonna go see which console my brother's playing right now and figure out whether I wanna play Final Fantasy X or IX. Hehe. Bye!

I almost forgot! Oops. I met with the lady who's gonna do my hair today, and she seems really nice. She said that the dye job isn't gonna be permanent and it'll eventually wash out, but I can keep putting it in to keep it bright. Geez. I wonder why people don't make permanent hair dye in bright colors like neon pink and orange? x_X

Oh yeah, my mom also has to ask my school if it's allowed, it should be, because I've seen a few people with bright colors like pink and red and orange in their hair before, except mine is probably gonna be brighter than theirs.

My mom also said that people might judge me more if I dye my hair. I don't really care, to tell the truth, because even if the people who don't know me judge me, it doesn't matter to me, because it's the people who do know me who count most. ^^

Last night, James was saying that he didn't think he'd like my hair if I dyed it...well, I told him that if he really loved me, he would love me the same even if I did dye my hair. He said he'd love me the same, but he doubted that he'd like my hair if I dyed it. Blah.

And then he started asking me if I were dying it because of J-Rock. Now honestly, I have never seen a J-Rocker with pink and orange streaks in his hair before. In fact, I've never seen a J-Rocker with pink or orange in his hair, at all, except if you count Kaoru of Dir en Grey, but his hair is purple, not pink. I don't want to look like a J-Rocker...

I want to look like me, but in a way that's more like my personality. Brown doesn't match my personality. But don't get me wrong, I love my brown hair, but I would love it more if it had pink and orange in it. Because it would be more "me".

Anyway....I'm sick of talking about it right now. I'm gonna find a game to play or something...Bye!

Yay! ^_^ I changed the layout, and I also archived some entries. Hehe. What do you think? I like the layout a lot...oops! I need to fix it right quick...there we go ^^ all fixed. Hehe. Well, I'm bored, so I think I'll go find something to do...or something to waste my time even more...bye!